THROUGH PERSONAL EXPERIENCES, CHALLENGES, & OBSERVATIONS
FOR BUILDING SENSE OF COMMUNITY, CREATING SAFE SPACE FOR DIALOGUES
& HUMAN CONNECTION
WHAT DID IT FEEL LIKE?
RECURRING THOUGHTS & FEELINGS
WHAT DID YOU USE AS REMEDY?
WHEN WERE YOU AWARE?
DID YOU SEEK HELP?
WHAT DID YOU WISH WAS DIFFERENT?
Dark...Very dark, very numb. It felt like I have a big plastic bag covering every inch of me, rubbing me off the ability to be connected to anyone and anything. Not an ounce of joy left in my soul and nothing was going to help.
Nothing can make me feel better, though the only thing I wish was to feel better.
Mostly worthlessness, and that I was not lovable. Kept thinking back to shame and mistakes from the past.
It was difficult to drag myself out to anything. But dance and paint have been the only two things that kept me going. As well as listening to podcasts about people who went through the similar experiences, something that could be relatable.
I remember opening up my eyes one morning, having absolutely no will left to live. I did not want to die, I just didn't mind disappearing from the world.
Yes, because I realized it was the only way.
I wish there was more access to help and remedy. More initiatives toward connecting people who has similar experience, more sense of belonging somewhere, more sense of community.